Mood: Drinking Jinro--the best Soju in the world!
Music: Kape-Jeepney joyride

I am so busy busy busy busy busy. Why? I don't know. To forget something? Maybe. To forget someone? Maybe. One thing is for sure, i am having the greatest time of my life with my family. No more parties for now, i am done doing things you do not want to know. Doing those things, will only cause you trouble and brain cells deterioration. If there's anything i have gained from being my past self, it's experiences. Experiences that are now telling me to stop being so adventurous and to start taking care of myself for real.

Forgive my crapiness, i am not even sure if i am making sense here. Maybe Solju is getting the better side of me. My dad bought me lotsa Jinro bottles to keep me from going out. My dad's the coolest he knows my needs. --Lol.

I have had two bottles so far and i'm still up blogging. I'm blogging because i know i have readers and friends who want to know what's been happening to me. Well, FYI, my birthday passed without a greeting from you! Kidding, i hate birthdays. It reminds of the coming of age. I do not like it. The only thing i love about birthdays is food because i love to eat.--lol. Anyway, am i still making sense? i'm writing under the influence of Jinro, two bottles of Jinro to be exact so please excuse the drama.

I will be going to sleep soon. I hate the fact that i will see you tomorrow. I know it will bring back a lot of memories. Memories i want to be erased. Memories that should have been with another person instead. You do not deserve me or even my attention. So please stop trying to make it work because i do not think it will still work. It was good while it lasted. You know that, i said that to you a long time ago so please stop. You are not my weakness anymore, just want you to know that. I do not need you. I have been known as someone who is a fighter of her beliefs so the last thing i need is a coward. The last thing i need is you.

I know i will erase this post tomorrow when i am sober again. In the mean time, i hope you get to read this.

Mood: I will miss you Bruce. No one can replace you.
Music: Ipod Playlist



Perhaps you do not belong here, but rather in the sky where your love together with the love of Lolo and Spike pours through and shines down upon us to let us know that you are finally happy.

I love you Bruce, you are better off there and not in this cruel world. You will be greatly missed.

Mood: Youth is not wasted on the young.
Music: Love in this Club- Usher; 4 Minutes- Madonna; Our Song- Taylor Swift; See you Again- Miley Cyrus

I wanted to post something about my delicate recklessness the past months which my readers and friends don't know, but since i still couldn't quite figure out the right words to use, i just decided to write about it some other time when my brain's fully functional again.

There's nothing really special about my post today. I am just gonna rant about the fact that life has been impartial to my needs. One of which is that i don't get to read good books anymore because of so much work. I hate it when my imagination, feelings and subconscious inklings of things are being compromised. It makes me feel that i am less of a person, incapable of giving voice to my own wordlessness.

I noticed that i am constantly experiencing a form of writer's block which is in every sense of the word frustrating. I don't know what's causing my mind to riot from its own design. Perhaps, i am just not in the mood to write an articulate prose. Perhaps, vigor has abandoned me for someone who's more capable. I don't know.

I wish i could say that i didn't care if i could not write the way i used to. But things don't go that way for me.

I like learning about many things. Photography. Sports. Art. Music. But writing has proven to be the passion that can either kill me or save me. At this point in my life, i want it to be my lifeline. Soon, if it needs to serve a purpose larger than my life, i will, by all means, allow passion to end the high cost of living.

For now, i just want it back, i know i haven't lost it.

Mood: Thinking hard about the lifelines and crimes of every politician.
Music:Being in love- Tori Amos; Africa Unite, Is This Love, Three Little Birds- Bob Marley

While the interfaith rally in Makati might be peaking any moment now, Pres. Gloria must be in her decent designer pajamas, smoking her lungs out, and considering suicide. I mean, Who can blame her for considering that? She's stuck in a 'glorious' moment and unless she adapts the ways of Vladimir Putin, there's no way out for her. Let me just stress though that Pres. Gloria can never be a Putin because Putin never risked the efficiency and security of Russia against his own political survival.

Sadly, our country has a long way to go if every leader's effort in political survival has taken precedence over efficient administration. No matter, here's a song that best fits our situation which never really changes.

RAGE BY THE JERKS

Children begging at the streets at night
Knocking on cars till the morning light
People standing in line for a kilo of rice
Welcome to the dark ages, the era of lies

Dreams of progress, of visions gone mad
Mendiola’s still drenched with innocent blood
Demolition men rumbles through smokey mountain homes
Darkness indeed, justice dressed in gloom

But I’ll go not gently into the night
Rage against the dying of the light
Sing a song about this terrible sight
Rage until the lightning strikes
Go not gently, go not gently, go not gently
And rage with me

And the names and faces of the tyrants change
But poverty, pain and murder remains
And the voices of truth are locked up in chains
Darkness remains, freedom in flames


P.S.
A TV reporter, who i intently studied as he shoot his spiel before the camera, just lost his mobile phone while covering the highly attended Mass for Lozada in Tondo. The funny thing is, he looked really gay in person but looked really manly on TV when he was complaining about his snatched phone. Oh well, i guess it's none of my business but i really think he's gay. Wala lang. Just wondering about it.

mood: steady lang
music: Spider Pig- Hans Zimmer, Simpson Movie; No Woman No Cry- Bob Marley; Boy You knock me out- Tatyana

This video has more than 3million hits in youtube and was featured by Yahoo! because of its message regarding global warming. Personally, I am amused with the brilliance of this geek, and it is for this reason that i'm letting his lack of a voice be heard all over the world.

Mood:Motherfucking ambivalence- We bumped into each other kanina sa paskuhan. You were on your way home. I was on my way back to the field. You smiled and avoided my eyes. Weird, why does it feel like everything can't be the way they used to be.
Music: Irreplaceable- Beyonce; Linger- Cranberries; Go on girl- Neyo; Soul to squeeze- Red Hot Chilli Peppers

SEVEN THINGS THAT SCARE ME

1. My being indecisive
2. Being away from my family for such a long long time
3. Flying cockroaches
4. The idea that God does not exist- that maybe everything only depends on a system of valuing. I don't really talk about religion concerns here and i think it's dumb to even start talking about it but if you're intrigued 'bout the system of valuing i mentioned then Spake of Zarathustra is a good read.
5. Firecrackers- i saw how horrible firecrackers could be. My dad almost lost a finger years years ago.
6. Earthquake
7. T-rex dino- their being extinct- thank God- doesn't mean they're not scary. In fact, whenever i watch NGC's show about Dinosaurs, T-rex still gives me the goosebumps. They're like the ugliest and fiercest creature that set foot on this planet.
Imagine living in the Jurassic period with this creature? Irk. No way.


SEVEN THINGS I LIKE THE MOST

1. LOVE- enough said.
2. The water. - i'm a waterbaby. I love the feel of water on my skin, may it be the beach, pool or even the shower. I love hot and long baths especially after a stressful day. Shower therapy.
3. Ferrero Rocher- the only chocolate that i don't get sick of eating.
4. Food and travel- experiencing different places, reliving history, eating so many kinds of cuisines. The good life.
5. Booze sessions
6. Intellectual conversations
7. Retail therapy- guilty as charged!



SEVEN IMPORTANT THINGS IN MY ROOM

1. My growing collection of Art films
2. My dresser where all my perfumes, cosmetics, and meds are.
3. TV and Dvd player
4. Closet
5. Pictures
6. Radio
7. Bed


SEVEN RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME

1. I have 5 dogs but and my favorite is Hutch, my labrador.
2. I love the feel under the sea. It's like a whole different planet down there.
3. I am super OC when it comes to my bedsheet. It has to be clean no matter what. If i see just a tiny dirt or spot, i'll make sure to change it to a clean one right away.
4. Even though i am not a shy person, i can be shy with the person i really like.
5. I love watching action films compared to watching love stories.
6. I want to learn how to pole dance.
7. People say i look exactly like my dad.


SEVEN THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE

1. Travel the world and experience each and every place.
2. Be able to uncover the secret or reality behind a mystery.
3. Have a hot and steamy night with Wentworth Miller or Hugh Jackman.
4. Be able to send at least one child to school.
5. Go skydiving or bungee jumping.
6. Be a successful media practitioner and a lawyer.
7. Save, through my own little way, our mother earth.


SEVEN THINGS I CAN DO

1. I can love.
2. I can just write the whole day and feel fulfilled.
3. I can finish a box of Krispy Kreme in a day and a half. I did that once. Maybe i can do it again. Hahahaha
4. I can swim really well.
5. I could be a bitch when i didn't get any sleep.
6. If you're my friend, trust me when i say, i'll be with you all the way. Just don't take me for granted.
7. I can quit smoking. I know i can.


SEVEN THINGS I CAN'T DO

1. I can't be a good soccer player no matter how hard i try.
2. I can't resist caramel cakes. Oh god. So if you know that we're not in good terms, just give me a caramel cake then maybe, after that, everything will be alright. You can bribe me once in a while y'know. Hahahaha.
3. I can't stand crowded places.
4. I can't sing and i can't play any instruments. It's a shame because me and mum are the only one who are not musically inclined. My dad is such a romantic singer and my sister, besides having the voice, plays the guitar and violin as well. The whole clan knows how to play at least one instrument except for me and mum. Tsk. Oh well, i love music but the idea of learning to play an instrument just doesn't appeal to me.
5. I can't stand people who always make excuses.
6. I can't eat fried meat if there's no Catsup.
7. I can't afford to slack off when i got big dreams waiting to happen.


SEVEN THINGS I FIND ATTRACTIVE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX

1. How he carries himself. I like it if a guy looks "suplado" and mysterious but is really nice and sweet once people get to know him. Just like me, i may look suplada but i'm really not. You just have to be gutsy to know me.
2. I like eyes that can make me melt.
3. Confidence. NOT OVERCONFIDENCE.
4. I am attracted to guys who are knowledgeable. I prefer knowledgeable guys to academically smart guys. Knowledgeable guys tend to have opinions on almost everything. Academically smart guys stick to what they have to learn in school. Intelligence for me is being knowledgeable and being critical of what you have to learn. It's not about how well you do in school but rather how well you know the world. I have nothing against academically smart guys. In fact, it's even better if a guy can be the best of both worlds.
5. I like a guy who takes care of his body. And i mean his hot body!
6. His sense of humor. I really like it if a guy can laugh at my corniest jokes.
7. It's a plus for me if a guy can sing.

SEVEN THINGS I SAY THE MOST

1. Oh mi god.
2. Really?
3. That's hot.
4. Grabe ka naman.
5. Whatever!
6. Seriously?
7. Takte!- Got this expression from Huie. I don't have a clue what it is. Putakte?


SEVEN CELEB CRUSHES

1. Wentworth Miller
2. Hugh Jackman
3. Freddie Prinze Jr. - he's still my crush 'cause this guy i want to quit looks like him.
4. Robert Downey Jr.
5. Johnny Depp
6. Jude Law
7. Jet Li- despite his age, he still looks hot!


SEVEN PEOPLE I WANT TO SEE TAKING THIS TEST

Tris.Tata.Ellan.Nique.Huie.Jerrah.Cathy

HAPPY 2008 PEOPLE! I LOVE YA ALL!

mood:Fuck politics, just drink
music: Apologize- Timbaland Feat. One Republic; Love show- Skye;

Aside from World Peace, i couldn't think of a single want this Christmas. I feel so unbelievably appreciated that i think it would be too much to ask for more. I feel very much loved by people who make me want to move forward and just forget.
Friends who can cope with my bipolar tendencies, not to mention my appetite. Friends who i bitch around and who bitch me around in return.
Friends who wish ill things about You that some even want to crush each and every bone you have but won't because they know i wouldn't be too happy about it.
Friends who helped me rediscover the feeling of excitement which was long absent in my life. Friends, who no matter what time of the night, would open their doors for me.
Friends who would booze with me even though they know they have piles of articles waiting to be read at home.
Friends who are willing to explore the vast and dangerous grounds with me without having second thoughts.Friends who make me feel warm by saying that having a conversation with me is always a good thing.
Friends who are not a slave of their inhibitions that they always know how to have fun.
Friends, who scowl but understand when there are times, that i don't want to be reached on a saturday night.
Friends who are there to remind me that i'm thinking too much. Friends who dream with me. Friends who enjoy being with me for countless number of hours without uttering a single word. Friends who speak their minds if something is definitely wrong.
Friends who share the same passion for knowledge and life.
Friends who stick with me despite their hatred for cigarette smoke.
Friends who can tolerate my pompousness. Friends who know why i have some serious memory breach and still understand. Friends who listen to the absurdity and rarity of my beliefs. Friends who act in disbelief when i say that i don't consider anyone ugly but then realize that may be i am right.
Friends who are so real that people living in a box hate, but nonetheless i love. Friends who let me be.

Happy Christmas guys. You guys are one of the reasons why i believe Christmas should be celebrated no matter the kind of spiritual beliefs.