Thursday, February 26

Traveling to Encounter Myself

Mood: Excited
Music: Philosopher Stone- Van Morrison

I've always wondered what is it about Thailand that makes it the sex capital of the world. I've always wondered how Phuket breathes easy after being hit by a tsunami. Most importantly, I've always wondered about monkhood and temples in Thailand.

Patong Beach, Phuket

Red Light District, Patpong.

One of the many temples in Thailand

I guess i am about to satisfy my curiosity soon. : )

Now that i am about to graduate, i will be doing a lot of travels this year before going to Brisbane for postgrad.

May 7: Bangkok, Phuket
June 19: Hongkong
July 5: London

I've always loved traveling. When i was a little warthog, i promised myself that right after college, i will sail away from my safe harbor and start experiencing the real world. Of course, my parents did not approve of this. They want me to always be with them. They think i cannot handle the daily stress of washing my own clothes, doing my own dishes, and cleaning my own house. They think i am always up to something dangerously stupid. Well, i want to prove them wrong.

While my friends think i am a mentally strong person, my parents think i am very fragile. Couldn't blame them. I was accident prone when i was a kid. Each time we were on a vacation somewhere, i would always go home with a stitch. Seriously. I even know how it feels to be in a state of temporary amnesia because i had a serious head injury when i was in grade four. Thank goodness, there weren't any scars to mark all these recklessness.

Yes, my parents believe that i am very reckless and adventurous thus they do not want me out of their sight.

Though there will always be a running girl inside me, they should know that i am not a little freak anymore. They should know that i am already a woman (Naks!) who is more careful and wiser this time. A woman who has to think of her future seriously. A woman who needs to play the game of survival of the fittest carefully.

I am very close with my family and though i hate to leave them, i have to. I need to find my own person without them. I expect a lot from myself, thanks to my highly individualistic nature. I told myself that, before i set out to marry someone, i will have to fulfill all my major self-expectations first. I guess life really works for me this way, i cannot think of any other approach to begin and steer my future aside from what i had written in this long post.

P.S. Happy Birthday Roshni. You deserve all the love in this world. Ellan told me you are among the very few who passed UP LAW! Gosh, you are so brilliant. Bloody brilliant. LOL.

IMG SOURCE: Cumple Pnp Reptile Street GVA PIX

Wednesday, February 18

The Cranky Insomniac

Mood: HK anyone?
Music: Soho Whores-Sam Bradley; I don't mind, Kissisaknife-Marcus Foster

Hindi naman sa lasingerra ko, pero minsan ay kailangan ko lang talaga ng alak para makatulog. Alam mo yun? Hindi siguro. Nyeta.

Translation: Not that i'm a drunkard bitch, but sometimes, i need a couple of tequila shots so i can sleep. Such is life.

Wednesday, February 11

Bad Cough, Shoe Attack

Mood: Starving
Music: Bobby Dupea

There is one consolation in being sick; and that is the possibility that you may recover to a better state than you were ever in before. I was horribly sick for most of the entire week. I hated it and i am glad it is really over. If there's one thing i learned from being sick, it is probably to stop wasting time and start working in a timely manner! Was so worried my clients would gang up on me because i wasn't doing any work the entire week. Thank goodness, they didn't. I spent my days, last week, bedridden, trying to get some work done, when clearly, it's an impossibility.

I love how every shoe tells a story. I am one of those people who wear their hearts on their soles. Depending on my mood, you can probably catch me in a dominatrix shoe. LOL. Seriously though, i believe shoes turn you into someone else. It's a power thing i guess, which allows you to dress as a sailor, a Victorian, or even a Renaissance princess regardless of the era you are living in. You do not have to be imeldific to enjoy a good pair of shoes, you just have to find the best one that suits you.

Can't wait to buy some boots for Brisbane. :D

"A strong pair of boots will be of greater service for the ultimate triumph of socialism than . . . black eyes"--Maxim Gorky

IMG SOURCE: Cobrasnake Lulu and your mom Stylesightings

Thursday, February 5

Rebel Muse

Mood: Just right
Music: Shadows of the city rough mix- Marcus Foster

I managed to have some free time yesterday to meet Tippy whom i hadn't seen for months! She looked really good. We hung out for a while and talked things over some chilled martinis. I'm glad her problems and worries are over now. She deserves to be happy even though she's really hard headed.

I mean it Tippy. You know how hard headed and bitchy you can be. LOL.

She told me she's planning to enter culinary school at her dad's request. I supported her, of course, trying not to expect anything from her. I just reminded her that we are nearing mid-twenties and that we should know by now what we really want to do with our lives. I think i got through her somehow.

I've known Tippy for 13 years and Tippy, if anything, is a sister to me. She knows all the dirty stuffs about me and i know all her secrets likewise. Though we can get into each other's nerves sometimes, she knows i love her. Right Tips? I'm sure you know that you will always be my favorite rebel muse. :)

I miss wearing my killer shoes and fuck-me heels. I'll have to wear at least one of 'em this month.

IMG SOURCE: Knight Cat

Tuesday, February 3


Mood: Panicky. In a hurry to meet someone.
Music: AC hum

Working on an article. I like to listen to FSwitch podcast when working. John's sexy voice stops me from being lazy and sleepy.

Books i have yet to read. One of which was given by my best friend Tris.

In case you didn't notice, i started my first post for the year 2009 with the word Busy 'cause that will probably be my defining moment in a while.

If there's any thing i want for this year, it would have to be career fulfillment and probably some lovin' on the side. If there is anyone out there who will enter my life naturally, then be it. I am not closing my doors to anyone but i am definitely taking a rest fighting for love. I have been fighting for love for so long and i think i deserve a rest more than he does. Entering into a relationship is probably the least of my priorities right now but i won't disregard it.

Been doing some serious thinking the past months and i think i am finally sure of what i want. Hopefully, nothing or no one will hinder me from achieving it. You see, i cannot afford to entertain the slightest bit of distraction right now but if someone will come, i hope he'll be worthy of my time. It's just so hard to find people worthy of my time nowadays. I've given up from being seen in the strobe party circuitry and I can just be seen hanging with people who i have real emotional connections with. I guess i grew tired of dressing up so glamorously slutty and meeting up fake people that i have now shifted my focus on more important matters like maintaining my social relationships and handling my finances well. So far i have been successful with the latter by trying hard to ignore retail therapy and by considering other alternatives like major thrift shopping. I have yet to improve on maintaining my social relationships though. I haven't seen some of my bitches in a while and i know that i will have to arrange something this month.

Time, nowadays, doesn't seem to be on my side guys, but i swear, i will make time for everyone.